I’m having a hard time at the moment. My eye is still useless, my car has been cloned and I’m getting fines that I’m not responsible for as well as other things that I won’t mention. Usually I’d be beside myself, but thankfully my cocktail of brain medicine is allowing me to feel kind of numb to it all. I don’t know whether this is a good or bad thing. The positive is that I’m not on the verge of a breakdown. But the negative is that I’m unable to deal with the issues by myself because I just can’t comprehend them at the moment. Luckily I’ve got help, others are less fortunate. This situation makes me realise how bad things must be for those of us who don’t have a support network as such. Trying to cope with everyday tasks that most people take for granted can become impossible when you are heavily medicated. I don’t think this is appreciated enough by mental health professionals. They seem to be concerned with purely reducing the suffering of service users from their mental ill health. They don’t consider the issues that may arise from the medication provided. Side effects are commonplace and the feeling of being drugged can prevent people from living normal lives. It just raises the question about whether the drugs in use currently are really fit for purpose. Hopefully research in the future will look to find drugs that aren’t riddled with side effects.
Hope you are all well xxx