I’m on a high today, it doesn’t happen too often but when it does, it really goes nuts. It’s a really mad feeling. Dizzy, nervous, joyful. You can feel it in your soul. You want to dance and run and love in abundance. You feel like everything is full of colour, electric even. You want to run away somewhere, no idea where. Somewhere where you can see the sea and feel the sun on your face. You feel sick because of the energy in the pit of your stomach, desperate to be set free. Nothing matters, nothing at all. You know you’re going to crash and burn at some point but for now this is ecstasy. This is how living should feel always. Like a crescendo that makes all the hairs on the back of your neck and arms stand up. For now you win at life. For now you are free.
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I am at the tail-end of my thirties, starting afresh as a singleton, moving into my own place by myself for the first time in my life, all while navigating life after lockdowns and living with Borderline Personality Disorder. This blog will be my journal. Some little bits about me to get you started. I love Godzilla, pizza, animals (except frogs), reading and vodka. View all posts by Abominable Bell Blog