Why I’m a bad person. I don’t trust you, whoever you are. Don’t be offended, I don’t trust anyone. You may be the most loyal person on the planet. It doesn’t matter to me, I will still assume the worst scenario every time. I test everybody. I’m probably doing it right now. The second I get close to someone outside of my comfort zone, I will start pushing, and pushing. I will sabotage things even when they are good for me just so that I can leave you before you leave me. I will drop out on plans at the last minute. I will feel elated and devastated all in one day over trivial things. You will never be able to accurately guess what kind of headspace I’m in, usually I don’t know either. Don’t hate me. It’s worse to live like this every day.
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I am at the tail-end of my thirties, starting afresh as a singleton, moving into my own place by myself for the first time in my life, all while navigating life after lockdowns and living with Borderline Personality Disorder. This blog will be my journal. Some little bits about me to get you started. I love Godzilla, pizza, animals (except frogs), reading and vodka. View all posts by Abominable Bell Blog