Too much

I’m so tired. Today is too much for me. I have been reaching out recently, to people I trust. Trying to strengthen bonds. It’s not going well.

I don’t know when I became a high maintenance friend. I never intended it to happen. My trust issues have made it difficult to connect with people over the years, sometimes I haven’t made the effort but over the last few months I have. I have reached out via text, told people how I feel. It’s taken a lot of courage on my part to do that. But now I still feel alone but worse I feel vulnerable as well. I appreciate this sounds vague and cryptic but I can’t go into detail on such a public forum. I’m just venting in the best way I can, I hope you all understand.