These mood swings are going to be the death of me. They’ve been getting more and more extreme over the past few weeks and last weekend was just crazy. Saturday daytime I was as high as a kite, couldn’t stay still, shaking, filled with adrenaline. Saturday night, crashed while out. Sunday, mostly in bed, aching all over, shattered, miserable. Today bouncing off the walls again. Its not even as if the highs feel good, they don’t. They feel artificial if that makes sense, like I’m in someone else’s body. My head is just full of stuff, some serious, some total junk, but completely full. I just can’t calm down, it’s like everything is an emergency. I just want it to stop.
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I am at the tail-end of my thirties, starting afresh as a singleton, moving into my own place by myself for the first time in my life, all while navigating life after lockdowns and living with Borderline Personality Disorder. This blog will be my journal. Some little bits about me to get you started. I love Godzilla, pizza, animals (except frogs), reading and vodka. View all posts by Abominable Bell Blog