Hi guys, just popping my head around the door.

The reason why I’ve been so absent is because there are things I just can’t discuss. Not here, not anywhere.

I will try and describe my emotions if I can.

I can only describe it as a dull, thudding ache that doesn’t go away. A nagging, unpleasant, relentless series of distraction and realisation over and over again. I am never free of it. I feel it’s unyielding weight, even when I can’t see its face in a mirror, no matter how hard I look.

I don’t know how long I will have to wait until this subsides. How long is a piece of string?

I’m sorry that I am absent from here. I miss it, but there is no room for other thoughts for the time being. I hope you understand.